The texture of time and disposition
We use the phrase Tincture of time to express the understanding that, whether insults be physical or emotional, they always get at least a little better, with time. The title of this post is different, for it reads Texture of time. Objects in three-dimensional space can be textured. All one has to do is look at these weathered shutters hanging on an old brick farmstead to know that it is so. It’s the fourth dimension, time, that I’ve been wondering about the last day or so. Does it have a texture too? Time certainly leaves its textured mark on physical objects. Mortar dries and cracks. Cracks allow water in, water freezes, expands, and fissures become holes. This takes time and the holes may therefore represent one of the many manifestations of time. There is no doubt that time leaves its mark on the human visage, a fact of which I am reminded each time I am presented with a mirror. I wonder if personal history, as it is expressed as personality, has texture as well? If time has been good to us, then its influence may manifest in a good outlook and a positive disposition. If we have been unlucky, and time has not been kind to us, perhaps the result is a more negative view of ourselves and of our situation. Might it be that, as we navigate the future, the ways in which we do so are influenced by the texture of our personality? It seems reasonable, I suppose, that history forcefully and irreversibly determines who we are. But, I wonder, is there no role to be played by our genes? May we be predisposed to responding to life’s exigencies in a positive way if we possess alleles which code for positive outlook and disposition? Other allelic forms may predispose us to assuming a more negative view of things. If outlook is genetic, I wonder whether or not we can rise above this predisposition, if it is negative, and see the bright side? I like to think that we may. I also like to think of the way in which we view ourselves, others, and the world within which we live, as an ever-changing amalgam of genetic expression and historical influence.